Allie Song 1: "TRIGGER"

Shining inside

Feels bona fide

It's almost like I'm free

Reality hits

It all goes to shit

I forget how to breathe 

I remember

My insecurities

The sins nobody sees

And the trigger 

Gets pulled at random...

2009

That's the first time

I really lost control

Years of regret 

And student loan debt

Chip away at my soul

But the worst part

Is watching people laugh

From behind the glass

And the trigger

Gets pulled from somewhere...

You'd think that I would come around

And find where I belong

But something always shoots me down

Guess I'll fly and fall for all my songs

Stare into space

At the workplace

Wond'ring how I got here

What's a paycheck

If you can't connect

With any real career?

It's the last thing

I think before I break

Daily, give-or-take

Then the memories start piling up

Suddenly I'm stuck

Cycling through sensations that I've felt

Pains that I've withheld

Words and places and the faces of

People I once loved

My chest feels weird and the LED hurts my eyes

I think I'm gonna die

But I can't clock out 'til 5

I wish I could just hide...

Shining inside

Feels bona fide

It's almost like I'm free

And the trigger 

Must be pulled by someone...