Sunday, August 8, 2021

Allie Song 2: "THE BOTTOM OF THE GLASS"


You can't force a feeling
But you can't fight it either
Seems like all my demons
Have become too familiar
So I go to this party
Force myself to smile
Acting in the moment
Living in denial
You might see me laugh, but I feel like cryin'
I'm running out of gas, but hey, I'm tryin'

CHORUS 1
I can't help the way that I feel
Don't wanna drink, but I probably will
After all, alcohol's better beneath the moon
At this point, I'm just foolin' around
If you wanna leave, you know I'm down
My glass is half full, but it's gonna be empty soon
And at the bottom of every glass
You realize nothing lasts

I don't know why I do this
It'll just end like last time
People acting stupid
America's favorite pastime
So I joke and flirt and all that stuff
A couple conversations
Now I can't stop checking my phone
While the pop music keeps playin'
You might see me laugh a little louder
But I've been faking that for like an hour

REPEAT CHORUS

SOLO(s)

This may be cool to some, but I don't buy it
My friends are acting dumb. They say "Why fight it?
You came here to have fun. Why not try it?"
(so I) Take the bullet from this gun, and I bite it

FINALE CHORUS 
I know where I am, but I feel so lost
You're makin' noise, while I carry my cross
Nights like these, I just wanna stare at the moon
At this point, I'm just foolin' around
If you wanna leave, you know I'm down
My glass is half full, but it's gonna be empty soon
And at the bottom of every glass
You can see your reflection...kinda... 

Allie Song 1: "TRIGGER"


Shining inside
Feels bona fide
It's almost like I'm free
Reality hits
It all goes to shit
I forget how to breathe 
I remember
My insecurities
The sins nobody sees
And the trigger 
Gets pulled at random...

2009
That's the first time
I really lost control
Years of regret 
And student loan debt
Chip away at my soul
But the worst part
Is watching people laugh
From behind the glass
And the trigger
Gets pulled from somewhere...

You'd think that I would come around
And find where I belong
But something always shoots me down
Guess I'll fly and fall for all my songs

Stare into space
At the workplace
Wond'ring how I got here
What's a paycheck
If you can't connect
With any real career?
It's the last thing
I think before I break
Daily, give-or-take
Then the memories start piling up
Suddenly I'm stuck
Cycling through sensations that I've felt
Pains that I've withheld
Words and places and the faces of
People I once loved
My chest feels weird and the LED hurts my eyes
I think I'm gonna die
But I can't clock out 'til 5
I wish I could just hide...

Shining inside
Feels bona fide
It's almost like I'm free
And the trigger 
Must be pulled by someone...